Food is a drug?

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It feels so good to finally be comfortable in my own skin.  But it did not come easy…these past 18 months (since the very end of 2012) when I was unable to workout, unable to do most of my normal daily physical activities…I had to ask myself who I was without the gym.  Being a gym rat for the previous 16 years that was a tough question. To be honest I had a bit of an identity crisis on my hands. I was also dealing with exactly what this quote talks about. I could no longer work out so my natural antidepressant was gone and I was eating bad food as a way to deal with some of the emotions I was feeling. I was a MESS!!

In January of 2014 I started my first Body by Vi 90 day Challenge.  To be honest I was not completely sold on using the products myself…I was what you might call a “protein snob”.  I believed that only the supplement companies in “my version” of the fitness industry could make a protein that was worthy of any serious bodybuilding athlete. (seriously Lynda…listen to yourself right now!!!) And I thought that Visalus was ok for the average person…but not for elite athletes or physique competitors.  But I needed to do something and fast…my physical and mental health were sliding downhill and I was not a happy camper. I had nothing to lose but my bad attitude and some unwanted chub! (Very unwanted!!)

I have been simply amazed by my experience with the Challenge!  The photos pretty much speak for themselves! Since I started in January I have lost 15lbs!  I weigh less than I have since my competition days!  I am in love with the ViCrunch Cereal!  I have never had such an easy time losing weight.  I am never hungry and always feel satisfied!  I have completed two 90 day Challenges.  AND the craziest part is that I just (and I mean like JUST in the past 30 days) started exercising more than 2 days per week. The majority of the results you see have been achieved through changing my nutrition and nothing else!

To learn more about how you can start your 90 Challenge check out www.femcamp.bodybyvi.com

or you can contact me direct femcamp@gmail.com

Make your day amazing! xoxo Lynda

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Back again?

My first bodybuilding competition was in 98. It was probably the hardest thing I had ever done. In 10 months time I went from never having touched a weight to stepping on stage as a bodybuilder. Talk about 180 degree switch! At the time that I started I was working in a bar, smoking a pack a day and drinking almost every night. My eating habits were horrible and I was 38% body fat! Wowza!
I started lifting with a friend who happened to be a trainer, which was a huge bonus because I never went through the stage of doing it all wrong in the weight room… But unfortunately that might be just about the only place that I got it right right from the start. Lol.
When it comes to nutrition… Contest preparation in particular, the fitness world is full of people who think that their way is the right way. Many of them believe that their way is the ONLY way. And they will quickly tell you that what the “other guy” told you is most definitely, without a doubt, undeniably WRONG!
Well… I can tell you this for sure… Some of them ARE WRONG! Dead wrong! My first experience with dieting and the experience afterwards should have made me quit this sport forever. But somehow I still managed to fall in love with the sport and the industry. It was the hardest thing I ever did, I wanted to quit every day, but somehow I managed to change all of my life habits (I even quit smoking!) and complete my mission. I am still proud of myself for that one…back then I was a quitter. I never stuck anything through to the end especially if it got really hard. Some how in those 10 months I learned how to see things through. I learned a lot about myself, what I could endure, how strong I really was, who my friends really were. It was an incredible time in my life and a turning point that started me on my path in the fitness world!

That was just my first of many competitions between 98 and 06. I’ve taken a long break from the competition scene…some things I’ve missed… Some things I haven’t. I’m looking forward to enjoying these next months in the gym getting stronger and leaner. I can’t wait to see the physique I can create when starting from scratch like I am. 

See you in the gym
Xoxo Lynda

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Painful to watch

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I used to be tough as nails! Seriously… The hell I would put MYSELF through in the gym just to see if I could! Or the 3hrs of cardio that I used to have to do to get my body into that kind of condition (we can talk about this rediculousness later) .
But these days it is chronic pain that I face on a day to day basis. The kind of pain that won’t leave for a single second…Sometimes I want to trade my body in for a different model… I think of the things I would be willing to suffer instead of this pain if I could trade! Ha! If only it worked like that! And Fibromyalgia pain is a funny thing I’ve discovered. There are days when it hurts so bad to touch my own skin!

If you haven’t ever had to deal with this type of pain it is very hard to explain… I know that there are SO many people out there who suffer every day in silence because no one has ever made them feel understood when it comes to their pain.  It is so constant and never ending that it changes a personality!

It can be really tough on relationships…the people who love these people in pain just want them to be happy, feel joy and look at them the way that they used to… But the pain is a constant invader that never leaves. Imagine being out to a romantic dinner with your significant other while you have a gremlin on your shoulders hitting you in the head with a hammer (oh, not really hard, but constantly…. Over and over and over) it would be kind of like that… If gremlins were real of course. But my point is that it’s hard to stay focused and give your undivided attention to the people you love and it takes its toll. And that is if you even make it to dinner…by the time evening rolls around who knows how you will be feeling and plans get canceled way too often. Friends and family start feeling like you are just flaky and unreliable.

I am super lucky to have amazing people in my life! My support system is strong and I don’t know what I would have done with out some of these people. People who were always there no matter how bad it got. Thank you… You know who you are!

Some of the coping tools that work for me:

*meditation tracks that I have on my phone (short ones though because my attention span is not that long), these particular ones are sound technology that brings your brain instantly to a meditative frequency. http://www.project-meditation.org
*reading something that brings my thinking to a positive state helps a lot.

Attitudes of Gratitude: How to Give and Receive Joy Everyday of Your Life by M.J. Ryan

Is one of my favorites

Exercise used to be my meditation and my escape from it all…but now it almost seems like a luxury. I am so grateful that I am gaining strength and endurance each week. I am so grateful to be able to do some lunges without hanging on to someone’s hand. I am so grateful that I can walk on the treadmill for more than 20min without resting. I am so grateful to be out of bed!
BUT… Hold up there sister! Here’s where I get myself into trouble…I get feeling good and I am having a good day, a good week even… And I don’t know when enough is enough! I push myself too hard and end up back in that d@#m BED!!

Lol… All I know for sure is this…
I always remember this most important truth… God will never give us more than we can carry. So I MUST be strong enough for this or it never would have entered my life! Never give up… I may stop and rest for a minute but I WILL NEVER GIVE UP!

Xoxo Lynda

2006 Emerald Cup

2006 Emerald Cup

Back in my competition days I think this was my best conditioning ever. I was lean and hard and, make no mistake about it, rediculously unhealthy!

In the beginning…

Photo taken by David Ford at F.E.M. Camp 2014

Photo taken by David Ford at F.E.M. Camp 2014

Hi everyone! Welcome to my blog! My hope is that by telling my story,  and being completely honest about it all,  I will help others who may be facing some of the same issues that I have. Chronic pain, chronic fatigue, depression, eating disorders, self-esteem issues, perfectionism, and lastly,  but certainly not least,  yes-man syndrome (the inability to say no to people). There may be more but I just can’t think of them all right now. We all have struggles and we all have challenges…it is how we face these challenges that defines us. For a while I hid away from the world and didn’t want anyone to know what was going on with me. I was ashamed and felt like a failure. But I’m ready to be honest and real with the world about what has happened in my life.. Oh yeah… And I have a goal to get back on the Canadian National Figure Stage in 2015.  I have wanted this for the past 5 years but I have been terrified to go after it. But that fear ends now! One day at a time and one workout at a time I will work through the pain and fatigue and get my ass back on that stage better than ever before! So stay tuned as I share the honest side of my journey through this crazy life… xoxo Lynda